I used to be a girl that could be considered one that exists in facebook, until May 2010 incident and make me like the mentally handicapped and psychologically to deal with it. Somehow, it's very difficult for me to just log in and view my profile, view my boy profile, act normal like everyone.
I felt like I've got a panic attack when I would type in www.facebook.com, and feels very tough. My heart began beating abnormally, and the worst, I'm throw up because my heart was beating too irregular. And the thing that most often I'm experiencing are: crying uncontrollably.
Indeed, there is an incident that made me so phobia against facebook. But I can not tell what I experiencedto anyone, even with my boyfriend. I continue keep it until it feel up to my neck and hit my stomach down. I have been bullied in the site. Not by my friends, but by someone who means a lot to me. Even worse, someone discuss and remind a dark time in a past to the present, and often made me feel that I was worthless in the eyes of all people and I'm looking for a way to hurt myself in an effort to makes me relief,because I have been punishing myself . Most often, I'm scratching my wrist until it bleeding, and there's a mark until now.
Maybe, my boy would did not expect this. But, yeah .. That's what happened to me. That's why I hate facebook. I'm so sorry, Mark Zuckerberg, though I did hate your facebook, but believe me you're very, very great, and fantastic, and so smart, and you should know that I'm your no 1 fans, even it used to be I'm a no 1 fans of facebook.
Cheers!
xoxo
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