HOW?

What I should be able to deceive his own mind? To be all that's wrong as wrong in it ..?
What do I have to say "yes", while the whole atmosphere said "no"?

I'll admit ..
I'm spoiled. I was not mature. I always win. I always wanted a spotlight on my way. I'm jealous. I do not easily forget a thing.

It's me.

I really do not want it all. I really don't want to be such a damaqueen ..
But how ..?

Tell me how I have grown ..
Tell me how I should forget about something that really hurts me ..
Tell me, what should I do ..
Tell me, what steps should I take ..

Tell me, in my mind, in my heart. What should I do, to be perfect ..?
What should I do ..?

Should I become a numb ..?

I'm confused ..
I don't know what to be like. So that everyone around me can see and find me?

I really don't know ..
Really don't understand ..

Tell me, what should I do ..?

Tell me, in my mind, in my heart.
In order for something painful that recorded in the past go and disappear. So I do not remember the last thing ..

Tell me how ..