L. eL. EL.

Well, I still remember about what's my best friend said to me this afternoon about my new relationship. She's started this conversation with the "L" word. OK, not a lesbian, but love. Hmm..
So, she told me about "he loves you!" and of course I'm freak out. I mean.. I don't know what's wrong with that word, but.. Too much consequences about that word..

And I'm talking about real consequences.

I'm afraid that.. Someday, what we have now just mess up like a shipwreck. I'm afraid that when we're saying that word, we're put so much efforts and when we can not hold on, we're just throw away all the efforts.. I'm afraid that.. I'll become obsessed with him and hold him back from anything just because of that word.

But, what makes me not so welcome about that word?

I'm afraid that I'm gonna lose him because of all the consequences of that word.. Well, I just don't want it. I want to be with him, I don't wanna losing him.

Let's make it simple! I'm still afraid of expect a higher thing, but of course I want to be with him as long as I can. And the only way is just let this relationship not too much, as long as we're both happy, I knew everything's gonna be OK:)

Maybe more like.. "Aku sayang dia" than "Aku cinta dia".

Hmmm.. Suddenly I miss him so much.

xoxo
-LJ-